My new job

Nearly 2 months here in new organization.
Time really flies!!!

My first day was quite ok as i was briefed with a really challenging new task which awaiting me to manage and take charge!

For the first few weeks, i just feel so scared.
I scared i will disappoint my superior who recommend me to work here.
I scared she will realise that i actually really not up to that level.

After that... i just feel so stress, pressure, demotivated, unhappy.
why? i think i push myself too hard and too harsh.
keep thinking i am not good, not able to achieve the target,
and disappoint people.

However, i think it's just a matter of time.
Today, almost 2 months in the company,
i think i cannot continue to think that way.
cannot stress myself... it's just a work anyway.

this few days i feel better.
i finally know that things are not uncontrolable.
i still manage to do the job probably.
and... i think my superior is quite satisfy...
as she is trying to give me a higher responsibility
and a bigger portfolio.
In my heart... IF she think i am not good
she wouldn't think of passing me the big portfolio.

i just hope things are getting better
i can gain more experience
really do up and perform well
one day...
i will succeed!

Pray for me...